"Love One Another!" 15/2010 → True Love Waits - Pure Hearts
Like most young people, I was afraid of taking up the challenge of living in chastity.
But I knew this was a precious thing, which I could offer to Christ without fear. The Prayer of Pure Hearts was difficult for me — very difficult, for I had to be demanding of myself. I had to fight to keep my promises. I fell into sin so often that I began to doubt Jesus would free me from the snares of the sin. But I persevered in my pledge “to go regularly of the Sacrament of Penance, not to give in to discouragement, and to pick myself up promptly every time I fall into sin.” I confessed my sins as often as I could. The moment I fell into sin, I ran to the confessional. It became a recurring pattern. I sinned, then went to confession, then sinned again, then went back to confession, and so on.
I could see no sense in this, and my friends thought I had gone mad. It might well have seemed so, for there were times when I would go to confession three times a week. But deep in my heart I knew I was doing the right thing, although I often felt very little remorse for my sins. I also knew that Jesus could see my efforts and knew how much I cared for Him.
Going to confession (not always to the same confessor, as this was not possible) saved me. The Prayer of Pure Hearts helped enormously too, for it prompted me to turn to the Sacrament of Penance as often as I needed it.
I persevered. Every day I tried to discover the reason for my committing the sin. Finally, after years of struggling, I found I was no longer the slave but the master of my body. My efforts had not been in vain, and I was overjoyed. My life began to change. I became more peaceful, more secure in myself; above all, I realized that with Jesus everything was possible. One only needs to pray, pray, and pray again and constantly rise from one’s sins through the power of the Sacrament of Penance.
I know there lies a long fight ahead of me, for this is always the way with achieving the most precious things, but I remain chaste and cling to Christ. He has healed me from my addiction to masturbation, which afflicted me for many years. Thanks to the Merciful Jesus and all your prayers, I have been able to conquer my weakness. I now see that “to everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”One only has to persevere patiently. God bless!